The Truth

If I said life were easy right now, I'd be lying and yet telling the truth.

It's easy because I've got the schedule down- Get up, go to the gym, go to work, come home and study the scriptures/ swim/ play guitar or piano/ eat/ and then go to bed. Wake up, and repeat the cycle again.
The other half of my schedule consists of thinking. And usually, it's too much thinking. Too much thinking about the future, what I can't do now, who I wish was here, who I wish wasn't leaving. This awkward phase of my life is what I call... Limbo. The stage where life suddenly slows down to an almost complete stop, and your left wondering how the year before had gone by so fast.

And then there's Cam. My sweet and ever-positive missionary who faithfully writes me as much as I write him. Unfortunately, those letters only come once about every week and a half. I try to be positive with our situation but truth be told, IT SUCKS. It's not easy only getting to communicate by letters, but it definitely makes your relationship grow stronger. I admire him for his ability to stay focused and write such meaningful letters to me. Love him.

I am so excited to serve as a missionary, but if it were up to me I would love to leave NOW. I guess the Arizonan heat and the lack of scenery make you go a little crazy after awhile.

I think the hardest thing for me to handle is the fact that my best friend leaves for her mission to Boise soon. I can't put into words how much she has helped me develop into the woman I am becoming. She is so headstrong and is always by my side, and I'm so excited for her to go in the field, but not seeing each other for about 24 months is going to be hard on me.

This next phase of my life (the mission) is going to require all my physical, mental, and spiritual strength. I'm not saying it's going to be easy, but it will be the most amazing experience I have in this life. I'm ready to teach the people of Houston about Christ, and how he lives, and how he loves us. After I went through the temple, I told my mom "I saw Christ. I didn't actually see him, but his presence was so strong there I just knew he was there. He's real mom, he's real."

I have an unshakeable testimony that HE LIVES. He loves us, and he wants us to return to be with him. I take upon myself the responsibility to gather his sheep and to help them return back to him.

God speed to all the elders and sisters just leaving or that are already in the field.

To the sisters, as Emma Smith said, "Sisters, we are going to do something extraordinary."