Stuck In Her Daydream.

I did it. I went and talked to the Dean of Music. NEVER in my life I have ever been more intimidated, my hands were sweating like crazy and I felt very, very small. It's not that I didn't know what to say, because I knew exactly what I wanted to discuss. I wanted a music therapy program at BYU more than anything. I wanted to be one of the first to start this pioneer program. However, there are always brick walls set up when you dream big. In this case, I hit a 20 foot tall, 6 foot thick steel wall.

"I'm afraid that starting a music therapy program will take at least 5 years to actually start," he said, "This building only has a certain capacity to teach in, so we would have to stop one of our current programs, rehire new professors, start a curriculum, and by that time, you would be done with school."

Yep. As far as I know that counts as a dead halt in my dream. We discussed several other options such as attending anther school with a music therapy program (I would rather shoot myself than go to the University of Utah), getting a BA in Music from BYU, and then transferring to a grad school, or majoring in Psychology and minoring in Music. Problem? I didn't feel good about any of those options. Not one. I know there's a great program back home at ASU for music therapy, but I just came to BYU, and I feel like my work is not finished here.

So now I have to plan. Every dream needs a game plan right? I've been looking at numerous schools I could attend. (Got to keep my options open.) Berklee, Boyer, Julliard, etc, etc. My issue with these schools is that they're all back east. Not that it's a huge dilemma, but the Democrats and I don't really get along. Next option- Music programs at BYU. The ones I would want to pursue include BA in Music, BM in Music Education, or BM of Music Performance. I would have to get a piano instructor within the next two weeks and be ready by January with a piece by Bach, Mozart, a contemporary composer and have all my scales ready to go. (In case you don't know, THAT'S CRAZY.) And I'm not all that interested in Psychology anymore. Doesn't appeal to me the way music does.

So. That's what I've got so far. More updates to come.

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